Finding Focus In My Chaos

Last night I started to write a blog post about embracing Weight Watchers as a lifestyle change rather than a diet. I wanted to talk about the idea that “there is no save button at goal” and that we should view it as a “live-it” rather than a diet. As I was writing, I noticed myself slipping. I was running off on multiple tangents and what should have been a simply stated, easily written post was without direction and focus. 

Because that’s what I’m currently lacking.

Remember when I said that I was planning things out and developing some strategies to get through this crazy time? Well I did that. But I got sucked into the chaos. I knew that this week was going to suck. Then I got here. And guess what?

It sucks.

And I have let that crummy feeling take over!

One one hand I’m ridiculously excited to be in school and loving every moment that I’m in class. I’ve been meeting some wonderful people, learning about things like soil, GMO’s, biodiversity and organic and biodynamic farming and generally having an amazing time each day I’m there. I’m loving my new Weight Watchers meetings and am starting to get really excited about my roles in REX now that we’re up on our feet and running things.

On the other hand, I feel like I’m running at about 10,000 miles an hour and I can’t catch up with myself. I’ve been trekking all over the city carrying what feels like my entire life with me (between books, food, scripts and an abundance of Weight Watchers stuff) I feel behind on my to do list and have no idea what my new schedule actually feels like because I’m still doing my office job.

I’m really lacking focus and it’s driving me mental.

Having focus or a goal keeps me centred and grounded. It gives me something to look forward to that is tangible, attainable and exciting. My goal this week was to “survive” which wasn’t very juicy or exciting and left me feeling like I was flailing a bit.

I’ve got 2 days left in this crazy week and I’m going to breeze through it with focus, direction and a goal in mind. My new life is waiting for me at the end of the insanity. A place where I will have free time. A place where I will be able to travel a bit less and have more structure amid the busy times. Fridays will soon be a day for myself and beginning next Friday I’m going to make the most of the. I will be attending a WW meeting in the morning as a member, having lunch with a lovely friend and book a massage for the afternoon. Sounds exciting, juicy and something great to work towards, no?

In the meantime I will breathe.

I will be calm and allow myself to prioritize what needs to be done this second, and let the rest of it fall into place. I will laugh and smile, because my new life is just around the corner and I think it’s going to be pretty amazing.

Does having a goal help you? What do you do to find focus?

8 comments:

Laura said...

Not that you have time to read a book, but I feel your pain and I recently saw a book that may help.It is titled, "So Stressed: The Ultimate Stress-Relief Plan for Women" by Stephanie McClellan, Beth Hamilton
It examines the consequences of stress on women, but it also offers solutions. I've just read an excerpt but I am going to get the book. Good luck, be in the moment and breathe. Remembering the people suffering in Haiti puts things in perspective for me Laura

Prayers for people in Haiti!

Florida Food Snob said...

I felt the same way recently - I decided to cut sometime away from twitter, facebook, blogger by just catch up every other dayish. It has added so much time back to my days! You are like super woman :-)

Cat said...

Yes, prayers for Haiti, Laura.

I'm a bit of a procrastinator so I definitely know what it feels like to be stressed. However, I always feel so much better about myself and more relaxed when I set mini, attainable goals for myself. As I accomplish those, life doesn't seem so overwhelming and I feel re-energized as I complete each goal.

I hope you are able to find some relaxation time (perhaps with Joey or a friend) before next Friday. (Or maybe you were talking about tomorrow?) It sounds like you definitely do better when you're busy, but remember to nourish yourself in the process.

BTW, I'm happy school is going well for you! It sounds like a perfect fit for you. :)

Pure2Raw twins said...

Goals helps for sure, though I do sometimes tend to steer away from them. I set goals though I sometimes can lose track. I really need to stay more focus and reach my goals better, haha :)

Becca said...

Life can get so hectic so easily! I totally feel your pain!

kathyj333 said...

Thanks for you honestly. I think sometimes people think that once you make your goal, you somehow have it all figured out. It's good to be reminded that it is a journey, not a destination.

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Robin said...

Your point on laughing and smiling through the chaos is a good one, Ashley. When life is busy and stressful, often it's because we've chosen it to be. Remember that what you are doing is feeding your passion and congratulations for jumping in with both feet. When all is said and done, you will look back at these crazy times and say to yourself "I did not take life sitting down".